How was I supposed to tell the boys? How could you explain that their father would never read them to sleep again, would never hold them, never give them little kisses to make them smile. They’re just babies. They could never fully understand that Macaron was gone… I don’t think I was ready to understand.

Later that day a lawyer came by. Apparently Macaron had always been prepared for something like this. He left behind a will with a bunch of letters. There were some for the boys. Each one labeled for a specific birthday. He knew this could happen, and even though he was gone, he wanted Jam and Jelly to have a little piece of him even so. And there was one signed to me…

Teri,

I’m sorry, if you’re reading this, then it means a job went sideways. At least that’s what I hopped happened, and not some freak accident with you by my side. This way the boys only lose one of us and not both. I know that doesn’t make it better. But you know I’ve never been good at words. Me confessing my feelings was a mess, how am I supposed to write this to you?

I just want to tell you everything… when I confessed my love for you. I was hiding a secret. Bubblegum was in love with you too. I knew and yet… I plowed right past him and took your heart for myself. It was selfish, but looking back I probably still would have done it. I wouldn’t have changed the years we’ve been together for anything. Those boys are amazing and wonderful, just like you.

I’m telling you this because… maybe I can make it up to my brother now. I want you to be happy Teri, and I know there’s something you feel for him as well. I’ve always known. I want the boys to have both parents. It may take time. and I know it won’t be easy right away. But you deserve to have the big family you always imagined. If I can’t give it to you, my brother can. Let him take over where I left off, but know, I will always love you, no matter where I am.

Love always,

Macaron Lillium