Jelly: It’s about time you actually start paying attention to her…

I don’t think anyone actually understood my hesitance…Though I didn’t even understand it myself really. Camellia didn’t deserve the lack of attention I gave her, but it was just hard. What if Mac had been her father? How different would she have been? How different would the twins have been? For a while I guess I just started wondering if it was the right thing to do, moving on from Macaron’s death. I know he wanted it, and I do love Gum. But I just ended up having a moment of guilt. It wasn’t healthy to carry it around, it took some time, and convincing of myself, but the guilt did pass. As much as I missed Macaron, my kids were my life, and there was no point in trying to rewrite it.