furbyq:
i that this happens almost every month, but be assured that i exhaust all possible options i personally have before it comes to this.
i’m having a bad time with my anxiety and part of that is due to the fact i haven’t had my sleep medicine. my pharmacy lost my last script and my doctor would not give me another one because i have a balance with them of $25. i also need to pay this balance to actually see my doctor on monday, and if i don’t, i probably won’t get my maintenance meds refilled either. at this point, i basically live on propanolol, otherwise i have a constant anxiety tremor and my heartbeat is always turned up to 11.
my parents’ bank account is in the negative right now by a tiny bit, so that option is what i would refer to as the Dangerous Option, which i don’t want to use because i need to keep bridges unburned to have any chance at gaining ground with my mental health. my paypal currently has $2 on it, but that is going for gas. i’m struggling because i have a layer of unbridled panic going on under my otherwise ok state of being and it’s destroying my mental health at this very moment where i type this.
if anyone can help a disabled person who is having a hard time right now, i would be forever grateful.
this is my paypal right here, and in the event i can’t get to $25, any money i do get will go towards food for my mom, as that is also an ongoing issue.
i do hope that when my insurance relapses, the mental health center in my city can finally assign me a caseworker to help me through being declared disabled as i live in a state where it’s incredibly hard. when that happens, my life will become significantly less stressful, but right now i’m scraping the barrel for my last two mental spoons only to realize i already used them and it’s not a fun.
please don’t send me hate right now, i can’t take hate. send me pictures of cute dogs. dogs > hate. no hate, please.