Jelly: No! Papa here!

Wisteria: Jelly!

Jelly had the hardest time accepting it. Maybe because he had the least amount of time with Macaron. He seemed to believe Mac was still there… I don’t know why he believed that, and I thought maybe he would grow out of it. Or I hoped he would… kids do have wild imaginations.

It took a long time to explain to them what was happening. And it was morning before their emotions finally wore them down enough to go to sleep. Maybe if they were older it would have been easier but… is it ever easy losing a father? Losing anyone for that matter? I’m not even sure they fully understand. But I think they know Macaron isn’t coming home…

How was I supposed to tell the boys? How could you explain that their father would never read them to sleep again, would never hold them, never give them little kisses to make them smile. They’re just babies. They could never fully understand that Macaron was gone… I don’t think I was ready to understand.

Later that day a lawyer came by. Apparently Macaron had always been prepared for something like this. He left behind a will with a bunch of letters. There were some for the boys. Each one labeled for a specific birthday. He knew this could happen, and even though he was gone, he wanted Jam and Jelly to have a little piece of him even so. And there was one signed to me…

Teri,

I’m sorry, if you’re reading this, then it means a job went sideways. At least that’s what I hopped happened, and not some freak accident with you by my side. This way the boys only lose one of us and not both. I know that doesn’t make it better. But you know I’ve never been good at words. Me confessing my feelings was a mess, how am I supposed to write this to you?

I just want to tell you everything… when I confessed my love for you. I was hiding a secret. Bubblegum was in love with you too. I knew and yet… I plowed right past him and took your heart for myself. It was selfish, but looking back I probably still would have done it. I wouldn’t have changed the years we’ve been together for anything. Those boys are amazing and wonderful, just like you.

I’m telling you this because… maybe I can make it up to my brother now. I want you to be happy Teri, and I know there’s something you feel for him as well. I’ve always known. I want the boys to have both parents. It may take time. and I know it won’t be easy right away. But you deserve to have the big family you always imagined. If I can’t give it to you, my brother can. Let him take over where I left off, but know, I will always love you, no matter where I am.

Love always,

Macaron Lillium

Wisteria: Wait… say that again I… I don’t understand..

[ Sir, I’m sorry. ]

Wisteria: Drop it and be straight with me! I don’t want apologies, I just want answers!

The man on the phone sighed. It was my husbands partner. What was suppose to be a routine mission went very sour very fast. They were just checking on a man who had skipped out on a parole meeting. The guy had never been dangerous before. They went into it without knowing! I hadn’t expect Macaron’s first day back to be his last day on earth…

We were all completely oblivious as to what was about to happen. Bubblegum and I played with the kids, happy as could be. The boys weren’t used to Mac being gone so long, but we kept them distracted enough where they didn’t seem to mind after a while. But after so long of waiting, they started to ask where he was. And so did I…