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When I had fully recovered it was time for me to return to school. I was both excited and nervous. Excited cus I was finally confident about myself. I basically hid myself in baggy clothes, always feeling uncomfortable. Now, I didn’t care, even my scars I would wear proudly. I was only nervous cus I was wondering what everyone would think, like Oak and her popular clique. But I was starting to realize, I didn’t really care anymore. I was finally who I was meant to be, and screw what everyone else thought.

I was so sore after that, I hardly ever got out of bed. The only time I even moved was to text Cobbler. I was on painkillers, but even that didn’t stop everything. I mean, they removed a piece of my arm skin to– Okay, TMI moment, but it’s my story, so who cares. They removed it in order to construct my… genitalia. So that hurt like hell. But still, I was happy. Even while I was hurting I finally felt comfortable with my outward appearance. The body may have been cosmetically created, but I definitely felt like I was in the body I was supposed to be born with.

Cobbler knew I was going to be going home soon. Which meant we’d be far away. I didn’t want to leave him behind, honestly I wanted to take him home with me. I fell for him so hard, he was more first love, and I wanted him to be my last. He promised to visit when the school year was over though, and I was definitely happy about that.

Before they took me up, Cobbler pulled me close and kissed me. I was so shocked. I’d never actually kissed anyone before. He told me it was just for good luck, but he was smirking. I knew when they took me upstairs and hooked me up to the machines my heart would be pounding. I was so happy in that moment. I was finalizing my transition, and I was pretty sure I had a boyfriend.

We texted a lot for the next few weeks. He told me all about helping out at the shelter, and I explained about my appointments, and when the surgery was scheduled. It was so nice to have someone outside of my family listen to me about this stuff. He completely understood and held no judgement, it had been forever since anyone did that for me before.

When the day of my surgery arrived, he even showed up at the hospital to show is support. I was so surprised, but grateful. Folly is a great big sister and I’m grateful she came with me, but having Cobbler there reaffirmed for me that I was taking the right steps.

I don’t know if Cheesecake thought Cobbler was flirting, or if she could tell that I was… well, highly attracted to him. But she left after a while, saying something about leaving the two of us alone. We talked for a long time after that. I told him about my surgery, he talked about his dad’s job working at an animal shelter. And how he got to walk and take care of the strays sometimes. I swear the sun was starting to come up before we both went home. 

Before we went our separate ways, he told me I was so brave for taking the steps I was doing to completing my transition. It was so sweet, I almost asked if he wanted to come to a couple of my appointments… but I thought that would be awkward.

Cobbler: Cheese are you bothering this poor guy? Sometimes I swear you don’t no when to stop.

Cheesecake: Nice way to throw yourself into the conversation little bro. Besides it’s none of your business.

Camellia: Wait… I know you, you were friends with my brother Jelly weren’t you?

Cobbler: Keyword is were. I was new, younger than him and he seemed nice. Until all the drama he felt about his blended family started bringing me down.

Camellia: Yea, I remember Dad saying he used to be a brat. You live in Peanut Brittlebay now?

The pre-op felt like it took weeks, so many appointments I was getting anxious for the surgery to actually happen. But since I knew after it was all done, I probably would be stuck inside for a long time. So I took the time to roam Peanut Brittlebay as much as possible. Since I knew I’d have to leave eventually. I was glad I did, because it led me to a couple of people that I really am grateful I met.

Cheesecake: Hi there, what’s a cute girl like you wandering alone at night?

I’ve flirted before. Badly, since none of the guys I flirted with before reciprocated. But she was definitely laying it on thick. It was kind of cute in a way.

Camellia: Oh… actually I’m transgender so… not a girl.

Cheesecake: Oh! I’m so sorry, that was rude of me. You’re just really cute. 

She laughed nervously, but I was expecting her reaction to be like it was back home. She was remarkably understanding, and didn’t seem disgusted that I was trans. It was so unlike Melonburg, it really shocked me.

The rooms were small, but I liked it that way. It made me feel more comfortable. Like I was safe here. Back home not many people understood, but here in Peanut Brittlebay things were so much more open. It really calmed my nerves.

Dr. Wada: So you have been using a binder?

Camellia: Yea, the T has helped them to stop growing, but hasn’t gotten rid of them completely. So yea…

I’ve never actually been this close to being naked in front of anyone before. So to be honest, it was very awkward. But I trusted her. She was here to help me.

Dr. Wada: Alright Cam, let’s do a  physical, just so I can get an idea of you, and what we’ll need to do for your SRS.

Dr. Wada: You must be Camellia.

Camellia: Yup! That’s me, are you my doctor?

Dr. Wada: Yes, I always like to meet my patients first to break the ice. I’m Doctor Mikan Wada. I’ll show you to the room, and my nurse will get you settled.

Camellia: Sounds perfect!

I seemed excited, but I definitely was nervous. I knew I wanted this, but surgery is scary. Even though it would help my dysphoria, I was still scared by the risks. Anyone would be.