The rooms were small, but I liked it that way. It made me feel more comfortable. Like I was safe here. Back home not many people understood, but here in Peanut Brittlebay things were so much more open. It really calmed my nerves.

Dr. Wada: So you have been using a binder?

Camellia: Yea, the T has helped them to stop growing, but hasn’t gotten rid of them completely. So yea…

I’ve never actually been this close to being naked in front of anyone before. So to be honest, it was very awkward. But I trusted her. She was here to help me.

Dr. Wada: Alright Cam, let’s do a  physical, just so I can get an idea of you, and what we’ll need to do for your SRS.

Dr. Wada: You must be Camellia.

Camellia: Yup! That’s me, are you my doctor?

Dr. Wada: Yes, I always like to meet my patients first to break the ice. I’m Doctor Mikan Wada. I’ll show you to the room, and my nurse will get you settled.

Camellia: Sounds perfect!

I seemed excited, but I definitely was nervous. I knew I wanted this, but surgery is scary. Even though it would help my dysphoria, I was still scared by the risks. Anyone would be.