Tag: TS4

I don’t know if Cheesecake thought Cobbler was flirting, or if she could tell that I was… well, highly attracted to him. But she left after a while, saying something about leaving the two of us alone. We talked for a long time after that. I told him about my surgery, he talked about his dad’s job working at an animal shelter. And how he got to walk and take care of the strays sometimes. I swear the sun was starting to come up before we both went home. 

Before we went our separate ways, he told me I was so brave for taking the steps I was doing to completing my transition. It was so sweet, I almost asked if he wanted to come to a couple of my appointments… but I thought that would be awkward.

Cobbler: Cheese are you bothering this poor guy? Sometimes I swear you don’t no when to stop.

Cheesecake: Nice way to throw yourself into the conversation little bro. Besides it’s none of your business.

Camellia: Wait… I know you, you were friends with my brother Jelly weren’t you?

Cobbler: Keyword is were. I was new, younger than him and he seemed nice. Until all the drama he felt about his blended family started bringing me down.

Camellia: Yea, I remember Dad saying he used to be a brat. You live in Peanut Brittlebay now?

The pre-op felt like it took weeks, so many appointments I was getting anxious for the surgery to actually happen. But since I knew after it was all done, I probably would be stuck inside for a long time. So I took the time to roam Peanut Brittlebay as much as possible. Since I knew I’d have to leave eventually. I was glad I did, because it led me to a couple of people that I really am grateful I met.

Cheesecake: Hi there, what’s a cute girl like you wandering alone at night?

I’ve flirted before. Badly, since none of the guys I flirted with before reciprocated. But she was definitely laying it on thick. It was kind of cute in a way.

Camellia: Oh… actually I’m transgender so… not a girl.

Cheesecake: Oh! I’m so sorry, that was rude of me. You’re just really cute. 

She laughed nervously, but I was expecting her reaction to be like it was back home. She was remarkably understanding, and didn’t seem disgusted that I was trans. It was so unlike Melonburg, it really shocked me.

The rooms were small, but I liked it that way. It made me feel more comfortable. Like I was safe here. Back home not many people understood, but here in Peanut Brittlebay things were so much more open. It really calmed my nerves.

Dr. Wada: So you have been using a binder?

Camellia: Yea, the T has helped them to stop growing, but hasn’t gotten rid of them completely. So yea…

I’ve never actually been this close to being naked in front of anyone before. So to be honest, it was very awkward. But I trusted her. She was here to help me.

Dr. Wada: Alright Cam, let’s do a  physical, just so I can get an idea of you, and what we’ll need to do for your SRS.

Dr. Wada: You must be Camellia.

Camellia: Yup! That’s me, are you my doctor?

Dr. Wada: Yes, I always like to meet my patients first to break the ice. I’m Doctor Mikan Wada. I’ll show you to the room, and my nurse will get you settled.

Camellia: Sounds perfect!

I seemed excited, but I definitely was nervous. I knew I wanted this, but surgery is scary. Even though it would help my dysphoria, I was still scared by the risks. Anyone would be.

Camellia: Finally, we’re here!

Folly: Don’t get too excited Cam, this isn’t going to happen overnight.

Camellia: I know, there are a ton of pre-op appointments. But I’m just happy that things are finally moving forward.

Folly: And I’m happy to help you along the way. Besides I was getting tired of Melonburg. It’s nice to get some vacation time.

We talked for what felt like the entire day. There was different opinions from both of them, Papa Gum seemed to have the most trouble with it. Maybe since I was in his belly or something. Whatever the case, he took the most convincing. Finally they agreed, but only if one of my brothers or sisters came with me, and I called to update they every step of the way. I was more than ready to do this.

Wisteria: I don’t know Cam, that’s a huge step. You’re still growing, and still in school. Recovery is going to take a long time…

Cam: I talked about it with my guidance counselor dad, she said they can give me time off for it. Since it’s a medical procedure.

Bubblegum: What if… what if you change your mind Cam. You can’t reverse this!

Cam: What! I won’t change my mind! If I had I would have stopped taking T a long time ago. Please, I want to do this!

Cam: Dads, can I talk to you for a minute? It’s important.

Wisteria: Of course Cam honey, what’s up?

Cam: Well… you know how you were so open when I told you how I felt all those years ago? 

It was so difficult to get it out. Not only was I going to be far away from them, but I’d be having surgery. Something I was sure would freak them out.

Bubblegum: Okay, you’re worrying me now. What is it?

Wisteria: Whatever it is, I’m sure we can handle it.

Cam: Well… I want to go to Peanut Brittlebay and… and get SRS. I know the T was enough for a while but I feel like I’m not me yet. 

Bubblegum: SRS, what–

Cam: Dad… don’t make me say it… sigh Sexual Reassignment Surgery. It’s perfectly safe, and the doctors there have done it loads of times!

I started feeling like maybe I was broken, but not in the way they thought. The T did the job it needed to for the most part. My jaw line was definitely more masculine, my voice was even deeper. But despite that I still felt dysphoria. Maybe if I took it a step further… maybe I would feel better about myself. Maybe then people would stop seeing me as how they thought I should be and start understanding that this was who I was.

But I wasn’t only doing it for them. I wanted to do it for me. I wanted to feel comfortable in my own skin. The problem was, Melonburg didn’t have any sort of procedures for that. Transgender people weren’t uncommon, but most towns in Sugar Valley didn’t have the advancements yet I guess. So the only way I would be able to do this was to take a trip to Peanut Brittlebay. They did that sort of thing all the time. Now my new problem would be, convincing my parents to let me do it…